Lonely And Painful Island

I need to find love
Cause I’m freaking out
I need to find inspiration
To be able to try to heal my soul
I need to find myself in somewhere
Cause today I am
A lonely and painful island

I’m sitting here on these stairs
Trying to find some piece of hope in mind
I’m feeling like a trash
I’m feeling lost
I know that it is hard to understand
And it would be ok if you call it drama
But I just want you to know that

I’ve been walking alone through the night
I fell on my knees too many times that I can’t even count
I killed myself on my mind
I wish I could find my place
That somewhere where I could feel safe
That place where I can be me
And be free to love myself
I need to find love
I need to find myself
Cause without myself with me
I am just a lonely and painful island
And all I could do is cry

I looked at the mirror
But I only saw emptiness
I’m feeling invisible
I forgot who I am
I’m looking at the stars
I’m looking for somewhere good

Why could I feel good?
It should be enough have myself here
I’m losing the hope
I’m losing

If I could back in time
I would back to when I was 12
I would hold my own hand
And I would also hold my heart to don’t feel alone
To don’t feel broken and breaking
To don’t be a lonely and painful island