The Water Inside

The sea was there
But it wasn't what took me away
The night was dark
But it wasn't what made me fade

I survived the storms
The days that tried to break me
What I didn't know how to survive
Was what I let inside of me

No one hears the water
When it starts to rise
From the outside, the boat still looks whole
But inside, it no longer knows how to exist

The boat only sinks
With the water that's inside
It can face the entire ocean
But it can't overcome its own weight

The boat only sinks
With the water that's inside
And no one sees the shipwreck
When it happens in silence

I kept every word
Every you're not enough
I kept all the embraces
That came too late

I made a home inside my mistakes
Gave my name to loneliness
And every time they told me: Be strong
I sank a little deeper into the ground

No one notices a boat full of water
While it can still stay afloat
No one asks how much water there is
Before it begins to overflow

The boat only sinks
With the water that's inside
It doesn't matter how wide the sea is
Or how strong the wind

The boat only sinks
With the water that's inside
And maybe no one ever noticed
That I was already drowning inside

I didn't want to disappear
I just wanted the pain to stop
But there are pains that learn our name
And never let us forget

And I kept becoming smaller
Inside myself
Until there wasn't enough room
Even for the little of me that remained

The boat only sinks
With the water that's inside
And the sea may look guilty
But it never knew about the storm inside

The boat only sinks
With the water that's inside
And when someone looks from far away
It seems like it was just another shipwreck

But no one saw
No one saw the water coming in

The sea didn't drown me
The sea was outside

It was the water
That I let stay
Inside