Oh My God, There's Blood Everywhere!

Digestive bile mixes with silken blood as a plea for forgiveness
For all my plentiful sins I've handed out as a testament to my kin
Contended eyes are all just processing the haunting of my lovers spirit
Pouring out of my
Damned heart and mind that's overrun by all the fallacies
S I stored behind my sunken amber eyes
My blood runs pure with tainted cyanide tar so someone please
Don't let me live

In this hazy state, I share a widow's kiss with who I loved so dearly
My idealized display, broken away by those who bind my life to weary eyes
One slashed away by swords of vicious fate that made my heart start bleeding
Why am I awake? This is a crime to keep me here alive

My broken body is lifted by the hands of the ones I victimized
My bag of bones is then dragged to the infirmary to be revitalized
This act of kindness from acquaintances is foreign to the punishment
I've seen throughout my time
The blood I've witnessed spilling from the heads of those who simply disrespect my surname's life in crime
It stains the front of my mind and down my back into the husk I've penalized

In this hazy state, I share a widow's kiss with who I loved so dearly
My idealized display, broken away by those who bind my life to weary eyes
One slashed away by swords of vicious fate that made my heart start bleeding
Why am I awake? This is a crime to keep me here alive

This operational room that I'm sedated in is framed by careful eyes
That watch as she goes about my surgery, in an anesthetic guise
This part of me is dead and gone, to be removed with the malignancy
That has grown inside my head
The thoughts inside me wishing
I could be with her inside the realm that belongs only to the dead
My optic mass is extracted with the hands of the ones I've traumatized

In this hazy state, I share a widow's kiss with who I loved so dearly
My idealized display, broken away by those who bind my life to weary eyes
One slashed away by swords of vicious fate that made my heart start bleeding
Why am I awake? This is a crime to keep me here alive

In my pit of hate deep in the depths of me, it's dripping out
I nearly died to get away
This deadly game has made me leave behind my lovely, eerie bride
Who stashed away her life to kill for me, she was a tool by family lines
She lived for me, this is a crime to take her dreary life