I Don't Know Myself

I don't know
What to think
I don"t know
How to feel

No joy
Nothing sad
Just vast emptiness

Here I lie on my bed
Smoking cigs
Having drinks

I don't care what's outside
What's inside
I don't know myself
I don't know
What to yearn
I don't know
How to hope

Dead mind
Palsied soul
Slowly crumbling away

Partly left
Partly gone
I am weak
I am tired

No more dreams
Only sleep
I am mute
I am deaf