i put the gun to my head

She said she don't miss me
I said: I don't really care
I put the gun to my head
I tried to just erase me
I hate all my fuckin' friends
'Cause most of them are fakies
Now I'm tryna shoot my head
But my mom just won't let me

I swear I've seen you outside
You were looking lonely
I was just tryna talk to you
But you fucking nerfed me

Were you ever real or were you in my mind?
You're like a gem, you're so undefined
Yeah, you are the one, but do you wanna be mine?
(But my mom just won't let me)
I don't wanna lose her, no (but my mom doesn't let me)
But one day, I know I'll die
I don't know if I'll be okay
Please tell me why I think this way
I don't know why I hate this place
It's all done, that was our fate

She said she don't miss me
I said, I don't really care
I put the gun to my head
I tried to just erase me
I hate all my fuckin' friends
'Cause most of them are fakies
Now I'm tryna shoot my head
But my mom just won't let me