Nevermind

I've never been so reactive, to just a couple words
But it can’t be undone, so you burn what you built and you run
You said I was your weakness, did that mean anything at all
I think it made me weaker, I've never been so fast to fall

I wanted to tell you that I hate when I wake up
'Cause the morning’s too bright
And you're not there to kick me out of bed
Just to close the blinds
And I wanted to tell you
You'll always have a place by my side
I wanted to tell you that I miss you after dark
When people start to hide
And I'm searching for your cold hands
To warm them up with mine
And I wanted to tell you
I'll be waiting if you ever change your mind

But never mind

I can tell you that I'm sorry, I should have just left it alone
Now I'm out here on the ocean just struggling to float
Trying to breathe on my own
Can I even say I miss you, your voice is one I barely got to know
But I feel like I hear it some nights when I'm dreaming
And I thought you’d like to know

I wanted to tell you that you may not have realized
The mark that you made
Each witty conversation, every freckle on your face
I wanted to tell you that
By my side you’ll always have a place
I wanted to tell you that
God, I think you're beautiful, you say that I’m too kind
You're intricately crafted, I'm the mess you left behind
I wanted to tell you
I'll be waiting if you ever change your mind

But you were never mine
So never mind