State of Decay

I feel it staring here right in front of me
I feel like it's here

Why am I always looking for more?
When all that I needed was staring right in front of me?
Why do I crave to be seen by all?
When the only thing that happens is conditioning to fucking fall?

These are the ancient questions
The weight that only adds
I want to give it up

I want to give it up free myself from the [?]
Free myself from giving to all
These are the ancient questions
The weight that only adds
I feel like it's staring right in front of me

[?] all from me
[?] feel something
Anything is better than feeling this
I'm losing my fucking grip

I'm waiting to feel something, anything
Right in front of me
Here right in front of me

Why do I crave to be seen by all?
When the only thing that happens is conditioning to fucking fall?

Something, anything
I plead
I plead
I plead
I plead