I Heard Heaven Is a Nice Place

Pick up the phone, you see
That I'm calling
You know I know that you're
Falling
This is the last day I'll spend on
This earth

If you need me on the floor I'll
Be sprawling
The scars that you gave me
Are burned in my brain
The devil, he works, in
Mysterious ways

And I know for sure that I see
Him in you
I think he's the reason for all
That you do
Like all the abuse

That you put me through
You paralyzed me I don't think
I can move
You took my life and you
Ripped it in two

The trauma I live with but I
Didn't choose
I felt things I shouldn't have
Felt at that age
Like in my own house but I
Couldn't be saved

Like looking at you only filled
Me with rage
And you were the reason I
Knew how to hate
But you're my sister

You know I love you but don't
Get it twisted
I know forever we'll always be
Distant
The piece of my soul that'll
Always be missing

I know that it's missing
You're hating me so as long as
I'm living
I can't' look at my friends in the
Face

When talking 'bout you and
That's something I live with
But that's what you wanted
Right?

I know you'd be happy if I took
My life
I'm sorry to say that I already
Tried
If you could be there on the
Night that I die
You'd probably say that you'd
Do it yourself
You'd drown me again while I
Scream and I yell
'Cause bruising and cutting
The flesh from my skin

Wasn't enough so you put me
Through hell
Why do you want to hurt me?
It's all my fault