Comprehend the meaning of these tears

Weakness lies on the other side of the gun
I'm afraid of what comes there,
My sanity is not ok,
So I begun to question my faith
Naked for my soul,
I call you but there's no one,
I feel nobody holds my hands
I question what is home,
Question what is God,
Just to know what loneliness can make to a man
The lights were out,
There's no way out,
You lied to me,
You lied to me,
You lied to me,
I believe you can forgive him, did you for die for this?
Did you die for me?
Did you die for him?
Did you die for whom?