Isn't That The Best part

Everything I didn't want to be I've become
Everything I didn't want to lose is gone
My dreams will never come true
I never had a one
Playing russian roulette with a full load gun

And it's all my fault
Isn't that the best part?
Yeah, its all my fault
Isn't the fucking best part

It's a mix of drugs
And I mind I've been cursed
With a never choose up
And all these aches I push
I try to clam up
And I look that you give
If I will give up
I wish I could go back and do it all again
But the way that I work
I just fuck up again
I don't know what I'm doing
Stop asking my reason for why I keep choosing to be my own demon

Everything I didn't wanna be I've become
Everything I didn't wanna lose is gone
My dreams will never come true
I never had a one
Playing russian roulette with a full load gun

And its all my fault
Isn't the best part?
Yeah, it's my fault
Isn't that the fucking best part?