No One Should Read This

Yikes!
No one should read this
But it must be said
I'm not a big man, no big thoughts, no reruns
I was kept like a sponge in a box, and a corner was split

That is what it's like to die
So I choked in a puddle of my pain until I soaked up all the red
Then, I traced the outer line
-Seduced to birth out a divide

So if you need a reason to hate, look up to me
And maybe someday, you'll find it
And if you need a reason to murder, look up to me
And maybe someday, I'll help you out, bitch

This elixir ought to be packed under a swamp in Cancun
And locked up swallowed by a crocodile
Miles from civilization

I make shit (mix it up) up all the time
Like to levitate truth in my mind
Like to make you root against me
You can't trust the judgment
Of the simple-minded criminal that's me
Never meant to say it out loud
Yikes!

But if you need a reason to hate, look up to me
And maybe someday, you'll find it
And if you need a reason to murder, look up to me
And maybe someday, I'll help you out
Maybe someday, you'll find the pitfall

Fell down a concrete staircase until she broke her spine
And some may call me a hero, but I've been jaded
‘Cause I know
Ever since then, I had been her pet
She don't think it be like that

But it do
And that's a cold fact
Gelid, like a winter cheek
Well, things ain't what they used to be

She got gone
And that's something that I can't forgive
I can't forgive that
There is no compromise

No one should ever know just how tight it tugged