Jaded

Mama's getting nervous 'cause I haven't been to church here in a while
Honestly, I get it, probably feel the same if it was my child
I don't know if it's me or them, but God, I
Can't breathe, this stress will kill me
Wish I never witnessed the corruption on the inside
Wish I never witnessed the corruption on the inside

I don't wanna be jaded
But I'm bearing wounds from the church of celebrity
Jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded
(Jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded)
I don't wanna be jaded
But I think I'm lost and not who I'm meant to be
Jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded
(Jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded)

Another story broke about abusing God and feeling crushed
Decades later, pastors rich and famous, while a woman's hushed
I don't know if it's me or them, but God, I
Can't breathe, this stress will kill me
How do I live justice but remember you're the only judge?

I don't wanna be jaded
But I'm bearing wounds from the church of celebrity
Jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded
(Jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded)
I don't wanna be jaded
But I think I'm lost and not who I'm meant to be
Jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded
(Jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded, jaded)

Pain and grief are honest friends we need but don't want
I wish nothing bothered me and I could move on
What if we're lost?
Why is it my business if our system's held up by silent victims?