I Don'T Fit In

How many words did I need to build my lies?
I don't even recognize myself no more
Ranfo

How many words did I need to build my lies?
I used to believe in myself without even notice
Like I'm acting a role that don't fit in my process
Should I break the habit of being myself
Or lock my soul somewhere high on a shelf?
And start living a life that belongs to someone else

Tell me why it's so hard to be myself
Why I feel like I'm someone else
Why I'm lost even when I try
Living, but I feel like I die
Tell me why I don't fit this life
Why I'm fighting me every night
I look alive but deep inside
I'm just trying to survive

How many days do I need to be alive?
Just to feel like I'm doing it right
But silence is louder when I sit

Cigarette to smoking and wine to drink
Weed to get higher and less to think
But I overthink everything when I'm alone there
Sometimes I try to quit but I fall again
Same mistakes, same place, same pain
I say: Tomorrow but it never arrives

Tell me why it's so hard to be myself
Why I feel like I'm someone else
Why I'm lost even when I try
Living, but I feel like I die
Tell me why I don't fit this life
Why I'm fighting me every night
I look alive but deep inside
I'm just trying to survive

Late nights staring at the ceiling again
Trying to find what it means to be me
Maybe I was never meant to fit in

Tell me why it's so hard to be myself
Why I feel like I'm someone else
Why I'm lost even when I try
Living, but I feel like I die
Tell me why I don't fit this life
Why I'm fighting me every night
I look alive but deep inside
I'm just trying to survive