Hate and Mystery, Mystery and Hate

Why?!
Why has it been so?!
Why must it all show?!
An unbelievable mystery
As complicated as a blackened void if all were there, but none

Might a reward be shown?
Or am I all alone?
The strength is there
But unable to bear

All the violent misery
As a result from mystery
Is transformed into unrelenting hate
And a yearning
For what it has meant to be

HELP!
RETURN!

The emptiness consumes...