I Wonder

I found
The thrill I was missing, months ago
I sought out
The one who seemed to shine just for me

I came to realize
That the light I need is within me
And you won't think that you are my air
I hope you choke
On your own lies

It makes no difference if you decided
You don't want me in your life anymore
And that you won't love me, anymore

Will you forget me?
And will you suffer?
Will you cry?
Do you still think of me?

For now, I'll fool myself
With my own lies
Saying I don't need you
That I don't like you
That I'm much better off
And happier alone

Until, from trying
So hard to convince myself
That becomes the truth
And you become just a page
In a dusty book on the shelf

Will you forget me?
And will you suffer?
Will you cry?
Do you still think of me?

For now, I'll fool myself
With my own lies
Saying I don't need you
That I don't like you
That I'm much better off
And happier alone

Until, from trying
So hard to convince myself
That becomes the truth
And you become just a page
In a dusty book on the shelf
On the shelf

I came to realize
That the light I need
Is within me