Harshly Honest

Hmm, hmm, oh-oh-oh

I'm not gonna sugarcoat it this time
I've held it in for far too long
You said you wanted honesty
So I'm giving it, raw and strong
I lied to keep the peace
I smiled just to survive
But now I'm done pretending
I'm done living that lie
You call it cruel, I call it truth
What we had is black and blue

Don't ask me to stay soft
When all you gave was cold
I tried to be the light
But you left me in the mold

I'm being harshly honest
No filters, no defense
If you feel attacked
Maybe it's just consequence
I cried in silence
While you played pretend
So now I'm harshly honest
This is how it ends
Sometimes I feel broken, destroyed and worthless
Sometimes I don't know how to deal with the pain that calls me
Honestly, I'm a wreck, a mess, I'm so alone, I'm too overwhelmed, but
I don't seem to be okay
I won't be what I'm not to please anyone
I don't have to keep a broken ego

Truth cuts deeper than a lie
But at least it doesn't die
You want the real me?
Here I am unapologetically
I see now how blind I was
To the patterns, to the game
You said: Forever
But forgot to act the same
I held my breath to make it work
But all I got was deeper hurt

You say I'm being bitter
I say I finally see
The version of me you loved
Was just your fantasy

I'm being harshly honest
Not cruel, just clear
I won't keep dancing
For someone insincere
I begged in silence
While you fed me doubt
Now I'm harshly honest
I'm done figuring you out
Sometimes I feel broken, destroyed and worthless
Sometimes I don't know how to deal with the pain that calls me
Honestly, I'm a wreck, a mess, I'm so alone, I'm too overwhelmed, but
I don't seem to be okay
I won't be what I'm not to please anyone
I don't have to keep a broken ego

If the truth makes you flinch
That's not my fault, that's your glitch
You wanted real?

Maybe I loved you more than you deserved
Maybe I let your chaos rule my world
But I've reclaimed my voice, I've found my fight
And I won't dim it for your peace of mind
I'll keep running from the darkness (oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)
Like my life depends on getting through this shit (oh-oh-woah)
I'll keep running from the darkness (oh-oh-oh-oh-oh-oh)
Like my life depends on getting through this shit (oh-oh-woah)

I'm being harshly honest
No edits, no disguise
This love was laced in silence
And now I cut the ties
I mourned in quiet
But I'm screaming now
Harshly honest
And I won't back down
No, I won't back down
This is my truth now
Harshly honest
That's how I breathe out

Sometimes I feel broken, destroyed and worthless
Sometimes I don't know how to deal with the pain that calls me
Honestly, I'm a wreck, a mess, I'm so alone, I'm too overwhelmed, but
I don't seem to be okay
I won't be what I'm not to please anyone
I don't have to keep a broken ego
Sometimes I feel broken, broken and worthless (broken and worthless, ooh)
Sometimes I don't know how to deal with the pain that's calling me (calling, ooh)
Honestly, I'm a wreck, a mess, I'm so alone, I'm too overwhelmed, but
I don't seem to be okay
I won't be who I'm not to please anyone (ooh, no)