Auto Abortion

I prevent myself from ever existing

Now it finally arrived
The day I shall spawn to this
Life, I have never chosen
This world is no place for my mind
It’s an awful cage for the freedom
I am longing for
I refuse to waste my potential
On this screwed up hellhole
You call a modern society

My final choice
Prevent my existence
My hate shall be a hammer
Crushing my own persistence

My only fear is failure in my attempt
To prevent my existence and my
Frightened heart shall stop when
I celebrate the end of my beginning and when
I turn into a stillborn there will be a smile on my corpse
'Cause I succeeded in what I craved for so
Ultimately it’s my precious auto-abortion
This suffering will be a
Bless compared to
Living a lifetime
In this mess

Your world is what I avoid
My death is my salvation
My life is all but sacred
My birth would be my damnation

Suffocation for me, it’s what I want, I rip
Off my umbilical cord, put it around my neck, it
Works like a hanged man’s tie, I gasp so happily, I
Travel the birth canal, the cord is holding me, attached
To the pancreas, which is my anchor, my sight
Turns into bright white, this is my final gasp, as I
Enter your world, it’s just another corps with my
Self-satisfied smile, on that blue swollen head

My only fear was failure in my attempt
To prevent my existence and my
Frightened heart has stop when
I celebrated the end of my beginning and when
I turned into a stillborn there will was a smile on my corpse
'Cause I succeeded in whatI craved for so
Ultimately it was my precious auto-abortion
This suffering has been a bless
Compared to living a lifetime
In this fucking mess

You won’t get to know me better!