Last Ditch Denial

Live and learn myself so thin
That you can almost see right through me
Yeah my stomach is sick from the constant mix
Of all the alcohol and coffee

But it’s the only way I know (woah!)
To keep an arm’s length from my ghosts (woah!)
Why can’t I spin it around and around
Where it stops nobody knows

And my lucky breaks are running low
I want you to know

It’s been a long time
Since I could look at the world and fake a smile
It’s been a while
It’s been a while
But this is my last-ditch denial

It’s been a long time
Since I could look at my face and count the miles
It’s been a while
It’s been a while
But this is my last-ditch denial

And every day is a whole new waste
Second-guess my own conclusions
With my tongue in a knot, I can struggle with thoughts
Of if I cannot, cannot do this

But it’s a line I’ve bought and sold (woah!)
My new ideas are getting old (woah!)
But now I'm turning them upside down
It’s for the best, or so I'm told

I’ve got my second chances down to one
Now I'm done

It’s been a long time
Since I could look at the world and fake a smile
It’s been a while
It’s been a while
And this is my last-ditch denial

It’s been a long time
Since I could look at my face and count the miles
It’s been a while
It’s been a while
Yeah, this is my last-ditch denial

My last-ditch denial

I think I'm ready to do this
I'm ready for what comes next
The prose, the pain, the politics
On and on and all of it
I think I'm ready to do this
I'm ready for what comes next
The prose, the pain, the politics
On and on and all of it
I think I'm ready to do this
I'm ready for what comes next
The prose, the pain, the politics
On and on and on and on and on and on

It’s been a long time
Since I could look at the world and fake a smile
It’s been a while
It’s been a while
And this is my last-ditch denial

It’s been a long time
Since I could look at my face and count the miles
It’s been a while
It’s been a while
Yeah, this is my last-ditch denial
And last-ditch denial

My last-ditch denial