It's Not Fair!

I want you to know I think about it
When I'm up alone, I worry about you
I can hardly walk through East Manhattan still

I got caught alone in your apartment
Kept you up till one, talking your ear off
You'd long gone to work, and I was sleeping off the pills

So humbled by it
No use in lying
Wiping the sweat back
Spitting and crying

Just to leave me yelling, it's not fair!
Just to leave me yelling, it's not fair!
I just wanted you to know I'm scared
And it leaves me yelling, it's not fair!
(I just wanted you to know I'm scared)

We laid on the floor in deep New England
Your brother was home, he always lingered
I had pizza breath, but you still curled up in my limbs

Now you get drunk and email me
Killing me softly
The feeling impales me
You'll always haunt me
I'm sorry, I blame you
That you couldn't keep me still

Just to leave me yelling, it's not fair!
Just to leave me yelling, it's not fair!
I just wanted you to know I'm scared
And it leaves me yelling, it's not fair!

Who am I kidding? I can't face you
Let alone my mother asking
How'd you lose her? Rash behavior?
Twenty-something ever after
Ever after, keep my distance
Now we're older, still I miss you
Still, I sleep late like we used to
Don't forget me, how I loved you

Just to leave me yelling, it's not fair!
Just to leave me yelling, it's not fair!
I just wanted you to know I'm scared
And it leaves me yelling, it's not fair!
It's not fair