I Still Remember

Alone and cold, another sleepless night
Lost in the depths of my own sorrow
Screaming on forgotten joys and smiles
I fell a victim to what once has been

Haunted, obsessed, endlessly wondering why
Am I cursed with ability to remember this pain?
The flashes of the past hurt my mind again
As I'm failing to comfort the self-destructive will

Plagued by paranoia, I drown in the mournful tide of thoughts
That have painted by scars the portrait of my soul
My worst nightmares are merged with pure disgust
With rage I try to hide the painful tears

Unveiled dreams have turned to ash and dust
The passion drowned in black despair and fear
The nauseate visions of suffering, bloodstained
Formed from the thousands fears and words unspoken

Embracing my mind with pain
Chaining my heart with inhuman angst
The silence's whispering my name
Filling my mouth with scream
Blinding my eyes with tears