Farewell

I still remember the time
When the sky was so blue
And warm April wind
Reminded me of you
Now everything's gone
Pain is blurring my sight
I don't fucking care
I leave this world tonight

The time has come
The final words
Have to be said
Unspoken for so long

I am sick of muted cries of despair
That go unheard. I was clinging
On my last gleam of hope
You have given to me an illusive chance
For happiness. So sweet, so deceitful
So many scars, so many endless nights
Longing for your distant touch

I'm never meant to feel
The fragments of lost letters in the thousand miles
Scattered like ashes of that cold summer
No more reason to struggle, I'm falling even deeper
In the claws of disheartenment
Every breath I take seems poisoned
Every tear I shed leaves a burning trace
Give me the final answer: Why?
And I will peacefully fade away
Into the sky. And my suffering soul
Will dissolve in the wind
Finally free from this endless pain
I can't stand this torment no longer

Endless hate and hopelessness tearing my veins
Why? Why?
Endless hate and hopelessness tearing my veins

I am bidding my farewell
Never reply to it, don't kill my last joy
Before I go I want to feel the blooming beauty of spring again
I'm closing my eyes for last time, and I feel gentle wind caress my skin
I still remember