Chemical Hero

the bastard can only think to run away.
and everyday i return to her face over and over.
now i live through mind melting chemicals.
my forgotten hero, now i take his place. pray to be scarred about the womb. kill ambition, kill motivation.
suicide slander molds meaningless chatter.
i aim a pistol at a mirror.
a cycle continues its reign. no fracture in this lifeline. it should have ended twenty years ago. return to the room where life begins. smash the source. cease the flow.